Harder then Expected

So when I had Ryan the toughness of parenting was pretty much on par with my expectations. I had been a preschool teacher, I knew what it was like to be around kids, sure it was different but I had assumed it would be harder to have my own kids. I had good days and bad days, but such is to be expected.

When I had Audrey everything changed. It is harder then any expectation I could have ever had. Right now I have one child teething (ie super clingy, whiny and needy- and up at 5:45) and one child that is fighting potty training like it is his full time job- and he is acting everyone of his three years of age (won't go to bed until close to 9pm). At the end of the day I am shocked that I survived the day. Yesterday my day ended with me locking myself in the closet with my computer eating Mac and Cheese and drinking a beer. I was in the closet because it is the one room where I can't hear whining. My saving graces were 1) I have a walk in closet, 2) My computer had wireless internet (thus great for online shopping 3) Last but certainly not least I have a husband who brought me the mac and cheese and beer (and it was the fancy kind of mac and cheese).

People keep telling me that this too shall pass. While I have trouble believing it, it is that hope that gets me through the day (That and my husband is wonderful). Tomorrow is a new day, the teeth could pop through, my son could decide that it is easier to go potty then peeing in his pants, Audrey might decide to sleep later, Ryan could decide he needs to go to bed earlier.... I hold out hope that something will change, until then I will keep getting up and doing it again.