Working Mom

Lately I have been going through what a lot of new moms go through. I am wondering what my future holds. Should I go to work? Is there any way that I can do that and keep Ryan out of daycare? What sort of job should I get? If I do go back to work, when should I do so? Can we give Ryan all we want to if I don’t go back to work? On the flip side, is it fair to put him in daycare if we can afford not to? But honestly, can we survive once my student loans become due?
These questions have been all consuming since I had a conversation with my loan company last week. The panic grows stronger every time I think about it. At some point I will have to make a decision. Don tells me that we will be fine, that I shouldn’t worry so much and that everything will work out. He tells me on a daily basis to chill out.

I will soon have a law degree that I worked entirely too hard to get, shouldn't I at least try to use it?
Last night I had a dream that I was in the car on the way to a job interview. I was almost there with about 10 minutes to spare when I realized I was in sweatpants and a ratty t-shirt! I had totally forgotten to change into presentable attire for my interview. Read into that what you will, but I am not taking it as a good sign.