Babysitter
I feel like I am a pretty good parent (so far at least). I make my own organic baby food, I hug and kiss Ryan about a million times a day. I read to him and talk to him and sing to him and dance with him. I make sure Ryan is fed, happy, clean(ish) etc.
So I am in a bind. I need to study for the bar, it isn't a normal test, it is the mother of all tests. You are supposed to designate about 8 weeks of your life to nothing but studying. If I didn't have a child that would be doable. But I am a stay at home mom of an almost 7 month old who is starting to crawl.
I can't study while he is awake. he sleeps maybe 3 hours sporadically through the day. This is simply not enough to get quality study time in. My mom tries to come over and help but she is an attorney and has to work around her clients schedule which isn't consistent. My brother comes on Fridays, but again it just isn't enough. I don't want to study less then what is required and fail and have to start again.
So I have been forced to do something I don't want to do. Don and I are starting to interview potential babysitters. Ugh. No one is going to be good enough. No one will be up to my standards, he is my baby, okay I take that back, no one who lives in North Carolina and who is available will be good enough (yes Rachel and Jess you would be good enough). So while I have given Ryan everything I can think of up to this point, I cannot give him myself for about 8 weeks starting in January. We will see how it goes. If I can't bear to do it after meeting the potential caretakers I am going to figure something else out. What I don't know but something (I could study all night, who needs sleep?).
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